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So crazy. [20 Mar 2007|06:59pm]
Simek, Margaret Ms
Barry, Paul Mr


FLIGHT Mon 21 MAY 2007
Departs: 10:20 PM Toronto
Arrives: 11:30 AM Amsterdam
Departs: 1:05 PM Amsterdam
Arrives: 2:40 PM Prague

FLIGHT Mon 04 JUN 2007
Departs: 3:20 PM Vienna
Arrives: 5:15 PM Amsterdam
Departs: 6:20 PM Amsterdam
Arrives: 8:25 PM Toronto
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[07 Mar 2007|08:07pm]
"Breathe Me" Sia

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
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[03 Mar 2007|08:33pm]
I don't know where I'm going, just know what I've left behind
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New Apartment. New Kitten. New Life. New Beginning. [16 Feb 2007|04:38pm]
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Looking up.. [15 Jan 2007|07:50pm]
This month has been a pretty horrendous way to start the new year. Luckily things are starting to look up and I feel like I have a lot of things to look forward to.

First off, the housing situation has sorted itself out. I found a bachelor apartment in the annex, right in my old neighbourhood. I absolutely love it. It's cozy and pretty and very me. I move out feb.1st, which is a huge relief to know that I will be out of this awkward living arrangement in 2 weeks. It will be really nice to live by myself again. I think it'll be really good for me.

Work is going pretty good, I've cut back on hours so I can work on the acting thing more. Looking for film classes. I'm most likely going to move up to serving in the next few months, which is also exciting.

I joined a choir, which makes me really happy and excited to sing again. I've been in choirs since I was really little and I've really missed it. I'm really a huge choir geek at heart. This one is pretty cool because its a rock and roll choir so we do queen songs and stuff like that. I absolutely love it. I'm also doing it with Amy and its fun to get to hang out with her every week.

Paul and I are getting along swimmingly. I love him more and more each day. I'm so thankful to have him around especially for this past little bit which has been really frustrating and stressful for me. He makes me laugh and smile and feel complete.

I'm still looking to get my tattoo done, once I get enough money... which is always an issue especially when moving. I need to buy myself a couch and about ten million little things you don't need to worry about when living with other people.
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Homeless [10 Jan 2007|08:56am]
I'm going to be homeless on Feb.1st.

If anyone knows of cheap bachelors or one bedrooms in the city, i would really appreciate it.

Mark my words, I am NEVER NEVER EVER living with another human again, until my husband.
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New Years Resolutions [04 Jan 2007|06:06pm]
1. Learn latin
2. Loose 10 lbs/go on strict cleanse with Paul in Feb. ( No alcohol!!)
3. Go to film classes
4. Join a choir
5. Make music with Paul

This new year has been pretty shitty. A lot of fucking retarded shit has happened and I'm pretty down in the dumps. I'm hopefully going to get a tattoo in the next little bit to cheer me up. "Dum vita est, Spes est" . I need a little hope right now.
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[12 Dec 2006|02:57am]
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LOVE IS......Collapse )
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Toronto peeps [06 Dec 2006|05:13am]
22nd Birthday shannanigans will be going down as follows:

Saturday, Decemeber the 16th
around 11pm
Dance Cave

Possibly dinner before.
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[29 Nov 2006|02:33am]
I'm fucking exhausted. I've worked 60 hours in the past 8 days. I haven't had a day off in over a week, and my dad has the audacity to ask me at dinner what the hell i'm doing with my life, as if I'm doing absolutely nothing.

I'm sorry, I have an agent. I moved across the fucking country two years ago. I have a full time job which I'm really good at. I'm supporting myself financially. I'm auditioning. I'm with the most amazing man I've ever met.

I'm not addicted to drugs, I don't party every weekend, I don't go and blow all my money on shopping.

I'm fucking sick of trying to prove myself constantly to my parents. I'm fucking sick of people thinking acting is a joke. I'm fucking sick of people thinking being a host is a joke. I'm fucking sick of all this fucking shit.
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One more week... [24 Nov 2006|02:59am]
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[19 Nov 2006|03:51pm]
If there has been one concrete feeling that I'd had throughout my entire life, it's feeling like I'm left out. Left out of fucking everything. The outside. The loner. My best friends in the entire world are on the other side of the world, and I'm constantly missing out on what's going on in their lives. Other people- it's just like I'm the reject friend who get tossed aside and forgotten about. Cool. I fucking hate that feeling more than anything.
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Paul leaves for tour for two weeks tomorrow... [14 Nov 2006|01:30am]
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My friend is gone, he ran away, I can tell you, I love him each dayCollapse )
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[06 Nov 2006|03:09pm]
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Love is all you need.
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[04 Nov 2006|04:18am]
I ripped my pants today at work. I almost bailed on my face but luckily Matt caught me before I made a huge fool of myself, but alas my pants were not spared. They already have two bleach stains as well. I've had them a month.

I'm really ansy and grumpy because I'm not doing what I love. No acting, no singing, no dancing even. I'm starting classes or a choir or something in the new year. I keep taking out my frustration out on Paul.

I thought I lost my camera on Friday at Paul's show, but I found it tonight. Which made up for the pants ripping fiasco that went down today in front of customers.

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Please follow Mike's blurry crotch for some photos from my non-missing cameraCollapse )
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Sick. [24 Oct 2006|05:59pm]
As you all may or may not know from my journal, Paul and I have had a cough/cold thing for about 2 and a half weeks now. So, yesterday I finally had the morning off from work, so I went to the doctor and it's bronchitus with a touch of pneumonia. Cool. So I got my antibiotics and skipped off to work.

I took the antibiotics last night for the first time, I woke up at 2am with intense stomach cramping- and when I say sever stomach cramping I know what the hell I'm talking about because I've dealt with bad stomach issues for years now. This was fucking way worse than anything I've ever experienced. I was crying it was that bad. Then I went to the bathroom and threw up all over the bathroom rug- something that I can't ever remember even doing in the past 10 years. I ALWAYS make it to the toilet- even when I'm wasted. So I'm up until like 6am in intense pain, Paul wakes up because I'm bawling and just holds me and rubs my back and generally just loves me to make me feel better ( which really did make me feel better because I've never had someone really take care of me when I've been sick ). I woke up at 8am and called work and told them there was no fucking way I could get my ass into work. I'm sure I'll get in shit since we only have like 5 hosts who can work right now. Fucking shitty.

Thank god for Paul. He's the fucking best. I dunno how I could have gotten through this night without him.

Now I need to get my ass back to the doctor to sort out this antibiotic shit.
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Taking Inventory [18 Oct 2006|11:14pm]
- Working six hours while uber sick, feeling like a sweaty ball that's been punched 10 million times

+ Getting off work early due to being sick

- Being sick for 2 weeks

- Throwing out my back due to coughing

+ Being sick with Paul/ Endless sick jokes

- No sleep

+ No sleep due to sex

+ Amazing late night chats/ Lost marathons with Paul

+ Amazingly fun coworkers

- Fever all day

- Sleeping alone tonight

+ Getting to bed early tonight

- Working like 10 doubles in the past 12 days

+ Mega paycheck

- No auditions

+ Clean apartment

+ Girl's night in with my cousin on Sunday

+ Imogen Heap and Jack's Mannequin in November

Life is filled with pluses and minuses. The trick is seeing the plus within the minus. The trick is seeing the light within the dark. The trick is seeing beauty in everything.
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Thanksgiving Vic Trip [11 Oct 2006|10:33pm]
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It feels good to be home, baby, it feels good to be homeCollapse )
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Friends [04 Oct 2006|04:25am]
People come in and out of your life everyday. You are constantly meeting new people, making new relationships. It always boggles me the ones that actually last.

I have some of the most amazing friends ever. Friends who I've known since I was young, friends who have stuck by me when I was severly depressed, heartbroken, retarded, at my wit's end. I have friends who I don't see for months, but when I do see them again it's like no time has ever passed. I have friends who I would die for. I have friends who can make me pee my pants laughing. I have friends that are ex lovers, something I never thought I would be able to do.

There are people who I used to be friends with who occasionally I wish were back in my life. I have friends who are too busy. There are friends who I am sometimes too busy for, and feel guilty because of that. I have friends who I know I'll be friends with until I'm old and grey. I have friends who I probably won't be friends with in a year. There are people who I've gone through life changing events with, who I'm no longer friends with. There are people who I've gone through life changing events with, who I couldn't imagine NOT being in my life.

I'm bad with keeping in touch. I'm bad with words sometimes. I'm bad with calling. I'm bad with remembering to email back.

People come into your life everyday. You chose who you keep around by your side. Friends are the family you get to chose. Even though I don't stay in touch with people, they are still forever emblazoned on my heart.
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[28 Sep 2006|10:42pm]
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I seated Mike Bullard today. Oh B-list celebrities who frequent Mr.Greenjeans, I've already sat Shawn, from the vj search (and now correspondant for Star Daily) twice, and have thwarted temption to tell him how much I love him.
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